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hmmm.. doonno y hav nitemare.. mi dream bout Lc.. haixz.. dream we patch... wahkaoxz.. oso got k*SS haixz.. oMG!! nite mare siahxz.. =( arghxz..

alamak.. ytd slp at ard 4.. den i wanna wake up at 8.. bud leh.. i donno y i keep on tinking that meet them at 10.30.. den i woke up at 9 i still continue slpin den ms called mi den i realised tat im meetin them at 9.30.. quickly rush.. damnxz.. haha.. wanna take taxi de.. but leh.. bus come le.. lol.. hmm den go swimming at cck stadium.. den leh.. sit + tok + crapz + luff + play games.. hahaa.. kinda stupid .. lolx.. den let e bubbles massage.. lol.. hmm.. aft tat go je cuz ms wanna go meet her darling.. lol.. den ask us go.. den we reached thr first.. den go eat lunch.. wahpiang.. den got alot of 'charity' thing.. haa.. so irritating de.. not tat i don wan to contribute is juz tat.. i already bought it.. if i keep on buying and buying oso no use.. haa.. den go eat long john yeah!! haha.. hmm oh yeah.. on da way to jurong entertainment hor.. got two gals walking in front.. one gal de hair highlight de.. den mi ask ms + my to see lor.. den.. they turn behind cuz i tink they heard me.. den ms sae u sae so loud blablabla.. den i sae i sae i wanna buy highlighter wad.. lol.. bth.. =p hmm den jl come le.. keep on suaning me.. knn.. not in da mood to argue much.. so wad can i do? diam diam lor.. hahaa.. go complain to my piggy.. sobsob.. lolx.. aft tat go thisfashion go see clothes.. bought a shirt + a skirt.. so nice.. lol.. hmm den e couple wanna watch movie.. den ms ask mi watch wif her.. den my cant watch.. sigh leave me alone.. be lightbulb.. haa.. see them so en ai wo hao xian mu.. =( lolx.. jk la.. lalala.. sometimes is liddat de lor.. lol.. hmmm.. and guess wad.. we watched 50first dates.. yawnxz.. watch tat show le.. but go accom her watch again yawnxz.. sianxz.. lalala.. but dint luff as loud as e first time.. lol.. wait v siah sway.. LOlx.. sighxz.. den aft tat i go home cuz she wanna have some private moments wif her darling.. lolx..

ltr tink gonna go xl hse wif big ham.. she sae her papa wanna see haa.. lalala.. yawnx.z. sian lar.. no peeps online.. sian..

blablabla.. y muz remind mi of dat idiot leh? tell mi y? den when reminded mi le.. ask u to continue u donwan.. soo damn contradicting leh.. ha! my life is now at e bottom of e ocean le.. full of downs.. no ups.. hahaa.. sian qu la.. arghx.. TELL ME Y.. hmm nvm don ever bother mi.. and i m nt gonna tok to u animore.. humph...


lalala who m i toking to..? not gonna say it here.. Humph! loLX.. evry human being thr's a limit to their patience... hahaa.. agree anot? lolx.. donno hu i tokin to oso.. of cuz is to my diary.. but leh.. my diary cant reply me.. tat's sad.. lolxz.. if e diary can tok de.. den good lor.. haha.. =p borINg sehxz.. long time dint play cs le.. haha..

hMmm.. so sad.. my appeal in nyp unsuccessful.. but they offer mi a place in engineering informatics.. donno wad tat.. lolxz.. den nw muzx wait for sp de.. hmmm so slow sia.. nvm.. tmr lor.. see how.. haha.. sian man.. don feel like doing anitink now.. haixz..

that's my macdonald.. hahaha.. nicenice.. hmm.. i wanna e code cannot right click.. lolxz.. =p lalala.. hmm sian ar.. woke up at 10+.. den saw xl's msg sae no nid lend her $ le.. hmm.. lalala.. now listening to songs.. chao sian man.. feel like going out budden no whr to go.. whahhahaa.. =p

haa.. juz create anot scene.. http://geocities.com/xmerzlen... veri farnie.. haa.. keke.. hmm.. whr's my lewis neh?? sobsobxz.. =x ahahaa.. hmm so boring.. nth to do now.. feel like slping.. haa.. sighxz.. somebody missing me?? cuz i juz sneezed.. hmm hu cld it be?? ahahaha.. piggy?? muz be him la.. lolxz.. jk.. =p

juz did a test.. saw it in angela's blog.. hahaha..

click on da pic to do da test.. so kewl.. i don need ani stinking bf.. cuz i can survive on my own.. yeah!! =p.. and guys sux... humph... tink they so liao bu qi ar... ehh not aiming at piggy wor.. my piggy veri gd de... fei yi ban de piggy leh.. =p


sigh donno how to kai kou ask my papa.. i rather ask him when he gimmi da money le.. arghxz.. sighxz.. =( stupid la.. alwaez liddat de.. ask mi to borrow.. go and pawn da blardee golds la.. it's no use man.. hahaa.. sighxz.. haolian wad sai la.. simple silver nice wad.. lolxz.. =x

lalala.. woke up at 6+ haa.. sian lar.. ytd cant slp yet i woke up tat early.. haa.. cant go back to slp.. cuz ltr going out.. to woodlands thr.. sighx.. im not gonna bother tat idiot le.. lolx.. I MISS piggy.. yeayea.. =p lolx.. piggy muz be slping lolxz.. blehxz.. =X hmm.. apr is ending soon.. tat's fast wor.. haa.. in a blink of an eye... it'll be 2005 soon.. wahahaha.. siao man.. middle of yr oso haven over 2005 soon.. ahahaha.. wad rubbish m i writing aniwai?? lolxz.. who da fark cares..

yea.. my blog rulz.. i lub e colour n evrything.. thou it look simple.. but.. I like~!~!!~!~! lolxz.. heexz.. but leh.. orange still rulz.. lolxz..

sighxz.. so sianz... life is full of shit... i muz sae... ppl don appreciate u.. tat's e worst thing.. =( haix... i hate it when ppl last min cant go out when everything had been planned.. sighxz.. dammit.. suan le.. =P juz ignore and life will be so much beta..

haa.. todae wake up den go my com.. see my cousin sae go aunt amy hse in da aftnn.. den i went bpp return bk den see got pressie anot.. too bad don hab.. den mi and my younger bro went yishun thr find pressie.. den we were kinda rushy.. haha.. den go my aunt hse.. haa.. ate lunch.. lalala.. den play piano play alot of things.. hmm.. den go thomson plaza.. walk walk.. lolxz.. hmm den aft tat go back eat cake.. hmm.. den aft tat brandan + tricia wanna go aunt julie's hse den i oso don wan go home so earli den go thr.. lolx. den go thr see hamster eat dinner.. play.. lalala.. haha.. den go home at ard 8.50 haa.. sian.. now 11 le.. =( boring..

ha.. my mimi sae she'll return mi on thurs.. but leh.. todae is fri le.. haixz.. bruff ppl de.. =( so sad.. mi now no $$ onli left less than $40.. haixz.. tmr still muz buy pressie for tricia.. that'll be less than $20.. sighxz.. =( nvm.. it's worth it cuz i dint buy for her ani pres b4.. haa.. provided.. 28 is coming soon.. which means my allowance day =D hahaha.. allalalala.a..

juz came back from watching movie wib my mama.. hahaa.. = so tired.. bud don feel like slping yet.. sighxz.. =( i donno wad i tinkin le la.. haixz.. zhen mao dun.. feeel like killing myself.. hahaa.. =X sian qu i wanna highlight hair.. sobzx.. =( whr ish my $100 haixz.. =(((((( sad case man..

bLablabla.. tuesday watched e into the mirror.. quite scary lar.. but not tat scary.. onli got few killings.. abit bian tai.. lolx.. hmm.. den aft tat go eat salad at lJs den go tanglin mall find xl.. den we ran away hahaha.. bth.. go mum mum.. blehxz.. den walk to far east.. den go to bpp.. take my contact lens.. haa.. den withdraw $ lend mama.. sian qu.. hmm todae getting back.. lolx.. den 6 days ltr get allowance.. yeah!! lolx.. den at nite go meet ian.. gib him his chestnuts.. -.- den he sae i shout at him he sad.. -.- got shout ma?? donno leh.. mi juz tok loud lolx.. den he sae i chio.. as if!! lolx.. different dressing onli wad.. -.-zz

den ytd went to SP go appeal.. muz photocopy our result slips + e donno wad sai.. den sp so big.. donno whr to go.. lol.. don haf e directory oso.. sian qu.. den muz ask ard.. lolx.. den finally found it.. hmmm.. den can appeal 4 courses.. and muz write e letter.. yawnxz.. aft tat go sun plaza thr makan and walkwalk.. hmm den aft tat go nyp.. e admin office was ez to find but they so niao nv provide paper like SP.. bth.. den muz buy foolscape.. keke.. -.- sighx.. Nyp can onli appeal 3 courses.. wahhaaha.. so total 7courses.. if all 7 courses cant go in.. den i gonna bang wall le lorhxz.. sad case.. lolxz.. =x hmm...

den todae nth to do.. ltr gonna go [plaza return bk den go home.. haa.. =.= sian arr.. =x now got e cleaners.. hmm.. listening to songs oso.. sighxz.. feel like slping.. keke. budden i slp enuff le .. haixz...

hmmmxz.. ytd got my appeal le.. sian qu.. unsuccessful.. knn.. whahaa.. hmmm den tmr gonna go all poly except tp to ask.. whether can gib us another chance cuz we bo courses to go le lor.. knn.. if bo pian den do private le la.. -.- sighxz.. sobz.. can do and eat shit le la.. mi ltr going watch movie.. into the mirror.. my kor sae some parts quite scary lar.. haa.. esp e sound effect.. wahkaoxz.. =X die le la.. im gonna jump here jump thr.. lolxz.. =D

now no ppl online.. sighxz.. veri sian. no1 to tok to.. haixz.. sobsobxz.. -.- haixz.. well.. wad can i do now ner?? slp mehx? haixz.. donno lehxz.. hope tat can slp la.. budden so early lorhxz.. i don slp so earlix.z. =x hahaha.. aniwai hope tmr get appeal la.. i bth le.. wanna COL le la.. : sighxz.. y liddat siahxz.. so blardee damn slow de.. suan le.. go do sthx.. sayoxz..

todae dint go for da interview.. haa.. heck la.. donno y juz don feel like going norxz.. -.- haixz.. headache now.. sobsobxz.. juz nw in da morning got bpp den horxz.. eat mac.. nicenice.. lol.. den i rmb mi n *ahem* go thr.. wahkaoxz.. tat day really sucks.. =X aft tat go buy groceries.. dotxz.. hmm den aft tat go home.. den v sian den ms,my and mi decided to go out drink thing... juz to kill boredom.. budden.. oso quite sianxz.. haa.. den we kip on luffing.. haa.. donno y.. dotxz.. hmmxz.. den walk walk ard.. bought hp thing, earring, ring, shoes and contact lens.. woo.. haa.. sianxz.. i wanna eat shit.. too sian le... =( do i miss him?? of cuz la.. hahaha.. lalala.. miss who? still got who.. lolx..

hmmm.. donno whether wanna go da interview anot.. chao sian.. but i tink juz go awhile lor.. see wad tat tupid manager sae lolxz.. lalalala.. i slp at 2.50 liddat bah.. den tot wld hear ian's sms.. but i dint.. lol.. cuz fell into a deep deep slp le.. lalala.. =x oopxz.. hahaa.. den my alarm woke mi up at 0730 den i slp till 10.. wahhahahaa.. donno hw's pig now.. lol.. pig finish test already anot? lolxz.. lalaa.. i miss pig.. as if rite?? no.. it's real.. waahahahahhaha -.- yawnxz..

siaN arrr.rRR.r.rRRrRr aPpeaL haven come lorr.. hmm called e NP le.. she sae all appeals will be out by next wk.. haixz.. slow man.. haixz.. den xl told mi her father help mi ask the 7 11 thing le.. den sae tmr go down interview.. chao sian manz.. den ian sae mayb pay $2 at most per hr.. i was like wtf?? haa.. sighxz.. sian qu larr.. sighxz.. wanna eat shit le larr..

juz nw go meet ian.. he sae gib mi sth.. gib mi a pressie to thank me.. hahaa.. it's a piggy bank.. i cant save $$ de la. lolx.z.. nw so sianz.

haloxz.. boring siah.. came back at 11.2o lydat lorhxz.. hmm aftnn go westmall for fun.. den ms go meet her husband.. lolxz.. den mi n my went home.. cuz no bfs for us.. sobsob.. hahaaa den went to xl hse watch vcds. den aft tat go fetch xc.. den xl papa buy e big ham breed gal de.. woo can mate wif mine le.. lolx.. siao.. haa.. den aft tat went to meet mama at bp thr.. den go lot1 watch movie.. ate ban mian.. like shit. haa.. den go watch The prince and me.. so nice.. so touching.. so romantic.. hsahahhaa.. sighxz.. den here type stupid diary.. gtg off soon.. cuz feel quite tired.. haa.. sighxz.. =( i wan my appeal.. sob

hahahahah juz nw go blackout for bout an hr.. song bo.. at first was about to blackout.. den i tot our hse onli.. den... phoof.. completely black.. i cldnt see anitink at all.. but luckily i noe whr's the torch light.. hahaa.. den realised dat whole neighbourhood oso.. den i tot is whole sg.. waaa.. scare mi.. panic alreadi of cuz will come to tat conclusion wad.. lol.. den ms called mi ask mi.. haha.. den waa.. song bo.. hahahha i told pig he tot i siao haha.. cuz his thr still got electricity.. waa.. den i called xl hah.. quite fun.. lighting candles.. outside still got ppl play torch light.. haha den my bro's torch light powerful de.. haha den hor.. call tat pig.. chat donno how long.. den kip on suaning me.. hahhaa.. baka.. hmmm .. den aft tat one by one blk by blk got lights.. haha.. den finally got lights le.. i shouted for joy hahahaa.. was damn hot lar.. lolx.. den finalyl can go online wahahaha.. =D

damn e renovations again.. like my alarm clock liddat.. 10am sharp so noisy.. kaox.z. feel like asking them to kao bei siahz.. hahaa.. but.. sighxz.. cant lar.. maybe other neighbours are feeling e same way as i do.. hahaa.. =p hmm.. slept at 4.30am liddat ytd.. i even tot of not slping cuz i kept turning and tossing.. i donno y.. sucks lar.. hmmz..

den i dream of a kinda idiotic dream.. it's a 'love' dream.. i don tink it's bout me lar.. heng. cuz it's kinda sad.. hmm.. got this couple.. den the guy say have u ever encounter ur love one sacrifice for u.. den he sae his story.. wahlau damn sad one.. cuz got 3 bad guys.. donno wad happen.. wanna kill e guy den his gf wanna save him den sae will haf *toot* with him.. den i donno wad happen to e gal la.. v saddening de.. aniwai.. dreams are absurd.. hahaa.. =.= bthzx..

sian worr.. nth much to do.. ltr muz hang clothes.. arghxz.. haa.. nvm.. aniwai ltr den update bahxz.. sayoxz

wahkaoz.. damn noisy now.. the farking neighbours doing da renovations.. now blasting da music.. whahaaha.. ask them to eat shit lar.. =X hehehe.. hmm so tiring.. woke up not long ago.. haa.. sighx.. life is so boring.. hahaa.a.a..aa.. i wan $ =( lolx..

ytd went to causeway pnt wif ms to gib seehian e pics hmm.. den aft tt walk ard abit.. den hungry le.. makan long john.. alot of ppl nehx.. den got one grp of ppl came aft us but took a table.. wahkaox.. bth.. but hu cares.. haa.. den eat finish le.. v sian.. den tot of going orchard den sms-ed MY ask her wanna go orchard anot.. haa.. den when she finalli call us she said she was in jp. den nt sure wanna go anot.. den nvm.. aft tat we took 963 go back bp.. wahkao tat bus inspector idiot.. aha. forgot to bring ezlink card.. yawnz.. haa.. den nag nag nag.. -.- ask him to eat shita.. =D hahaa.. den we go bangkit e 7 11 thr buy swts.. aft tat my called mi saying she wanna go.. haa.. den we waited for her about 45mins.. yeah.. haa.. -.- den we went to far east walk walk.. alot of nice clothes again.. haa.. no $ buy.. wtf?? haha. -.- and den we go tanglin mall go see XL haha.. cuz she working.. haa.. den chat for bout 5mins... den we go back orchard.. go borders see books.. haa.. den aft tat go home lor.. wad else.. walked so long.. v sian qu one.. haha.. den reached home le chao tired.. den slp for few mins den go online.. haa.. slp at donno wad time.. hmm.. 2+ bahz.. den woke up at 10+ todae.. enuff slp hehe =p tat's gd..

im so scared.. haiz.. donno y.. my appeal.. arghz... im so scarrrred.. sighx.. ask them ke lian kelian mi.. and my frenz... let us go in... haix.. sucks lar.. if unsuccessful.. im gonna Kill them hahaha. isghz. no peeps online.. Haix.. Sad.. Feel like crying.. donno y.. haa.. -.-

haa.. now listening to u r my evrything by 98 degrees.. niceesh.. introduced by Lc.. haa.. dotz.. hmmm.. v scared my appeal lehz.. =( stupid niahz.. HAa.. -.- gonna eat shit le lar.r.rr.r... Boring!!!!! haHAaa.. Wahlau.. Japan.. bTh siahz.. haa.. cRazy.. stupid iraq oso.. make so mani probs.. MAD!!! THIS WORLD IS MADddddddddddddddd TO THE CORE siahz.. hahaa..

dyed my hair again ytd.. buay pai la.. much more ming xian den last time tat one.. wahahaha.. =D so nice.. Lolx.. heez.. hMmm.. ytd another exclassmate found mi again.. my class exmonitor wor.. ahhaa.. den chatted till 3+ omg.. bth.. haa.. den my stupid younger woke mi up at 9 wahkaoz.. haa.. sian qu.. den go buy brkfast.. den aft tat go koon a while.. den aunt wendy call mi ask mi change her yahoo password.. sian.. hmm den here i am.. typing this diary.. haa.. still feeling abit slpy.. den i beri thirsty.. omg.. sian qu lar.. =D ha.. k la.. enuff crapping.. feel like going out todae lehz.. hai.. bud no whr to go and no one to call haaha. =x

haa.. ltr gonna go jb lorhz.. go thr for wad??? i oso donno.. tag along wif my mama.. =D hahaa.. den shun bian see got cheap + nice clothes bohz.. hahaa.. sighzz.. now beri sian.. slp at 3.30 wake up 10.30 hahaa.. 7hrs of slp.. not bad lar.. hmm..

ytd one of my exclassmates from Chongfu found me.. lolx.. song bohz.. hmmm.. after 8yrs den reunion..Lolx.. crazy manz.. well.. this is call fated lor.. =x keke.. Blehz.. now listening to ross roy.. by jacob de haan.. haaa.. beri beri nice.. one of my fav pieces.. i missed band.. =( sobsob.. i wan play my trombone.. Haiz.. =x tmr gonna go shopping wif mama.. haa. -.-

haiz.. head damn pain.. donno y haa.. who cares... aniwai my younger bro dint go to sch cuz he sae when he woke up wanna vomit liddat.. haa.. den my mama chao angry.. wth??? sae wad don bother bout him le.. aiyah these words she sae so mani times le lor.. but she doesnt mean it =x hhaa.a. maybe? hope that's e case la.. sighx.. ltr going woodlands wahhahahaha.. haiz.. donno wad kinda job ish tat.. hope it's ez de :x

yoz.. haa.. i've sorted out le.. sorted wad? sorted my feelings.. hmmm.. he doesnt really bother me le.. i wun tink bout my past... im gonna look forward.. e future.. yeahz.. not gonna remember anitink... treat it as nth happen.. treasure + cherish wad? all crapz.. memories are juz lies.. haa.. blehz.. to me guys are like nothing.. piece of shit i muz say.. lolx.. some gals sux too i noe.. =D heez.. next time they'll regret.. humph!! :D

tmr gonna go job hunting haha.a. sianz..

wooo.. shuai ge nehz.. edison chen guan xi.. omG!!! hahaha.. i got alot of husbands de.. shuai de all i take le.. LOLX.. bLehz.. hmmm woke up exactly @ 9 lorhz.. slp for 7hrs.. hmmm.. well.. borinG!!! nth to do now.. haiz.. except playing neopets.. wakakaka.. dOtz.. Ltr goiNg out wif my cousin.. hhaaa..a..a.a.. den evening go out wif ms to jp.. haa.a.a.a.a.aa not sure wad time la.. maybe 4 or 5? hahaa.. : duhz.. hmmm gtg pom soon.. haa.. sighz.. sayoz

I saw u smiling at me
Was it real or juz my fantasy?
Longing for ur touch again
Wanting to look into ur eyes
And having that special feeling inside me

Maybe it's all an illusion
Or maybe i've been dreaming
it all seem so real
But it ended juz like i have to wake up
Realising that it's all gone

How i wish that this dream wld continue
continue till e day i breathe my last air
But u destroy my dream when u say gdbye to me
How could u be so cruel?
But i know u have ur reasons
Though u dint say it out
I wun blame nor dwell on it
Bcuz it's my destiny...


created this on 4th april.. wahaha.. dotz.. tink forget to put up ba?? lolx.. hmmm.. todae went for da so called interview.. sian qu lar.. as if really zhong liddat.. juz tell us bout e working time , pay, positions blablabla.. BUDDEN HE VERI SHUAI!!!!!!!.. i was kinda mesmerized by his hair.. haha.. his eyes? ok lar.. hmmm he v handsome.. look abit like a china actor.. hmmm.. wahahaha.. =D hua chi ar? ya lor.. lolxx.. after tat ate Ljs again.. wahaha eat till so full.. + no appetite.. den go home lor.. ms gotta go someone's hse.. wahahhaa.. donno wad he wans oso... hope nth bad.. =X keke.. if he do sth bad i kill him arr... keke.. =XxxXx hmmm... den went home alone.. my gotta go far east haiz.. den i smsed jt whether he wanna chat bo.. budden he sae cant den nvm lor.. ask for fun de .. den reached home did some hse chores.. haa.. halfway de la.. sian qu.. hmm.. den 3+ Lc call mi say he go my hse downstairs.. den ok lor.. haa.. den when he reached le.. i went down den passed him da letter + he return mi my panda lolx =X lalala.. i gave it to him to represent my heart.. bud since he don wan my heart le might as well return me lor.. lolx.. den he sae he asked his mama help mi make pineapple tarts.. omg.. my FAVOURITE!!!! lolz.. i ate one le.. v nice lor.. den i she bu de eat.. sighz.. lolx.. =D really really v nice lorhz.. kekeke.. hmmm den here i am.. writing this diaryz.. hahaa.. i wonder how's ms le.. lolx.. nv receive her reply.. sian qu lar.. haiz.. shld i call her?? lolx.. wait kajiao her wor.. =X blehz.. gtg take out my lens.. it's irritating my eyes le.. SHUCKS...

halozz.. haa.. gv juz now called wor.. so happy siahz.. hahaa.. finally got job wan me le.. =x kekeke.. $3.60/hr lor.. buay pai le lorr.. i don mind as long got $$ i happi le.. =D hahaa.. yeahz.. juz nw joined friendster.. =D so fun.. lolx.. dint realised tat it's quite fun lar.. i mean connected to my frenz.. haha.. = hmmm..

today brkfast cum lunch i eat 2 plain roti prata + 1 choc muffin + a pkt of vitasoy.. nicenice.. den dinner ate fish bread + a pkt of milo + rice n pork? haha.. sian qu lar.. hmmm.. yummy.. hahaa.. tmr going ps interview.. pray hard bahz.. =D tata..

omg zhou jie lun... jay chou.. SO HANDSOME... hahaha *DroOlssS* keke.. i wan him as my husband.. lolx.. nth lar.. todae wu liao.. nth to do.. stay home now raining.. evryday rain.. sian qu lar..

in the long run
under the hot sun
and rainy days
there's bound for us
to go our seperate ways

there's alot being unsaid
and alot cannot be undone
it's the end of everything
and u cant go back to the past
even if u run fast

seeing u happi
my heart is filled
with happiness with u
seeing u sad
my heart is filled
with sadness with u

on a boring day
sometimes u ask
how is ur day?
a little message from u
would make my stomach flutter


found this poem.. i created it.. haa.. den put it in my blog.. haa.. gtg slp soon.. yawnz

e hurt im feeling now
wont disappear overnite
but someway, somehow
everything will turn out alright

no more wishing for e past
it wasnt meant to be
it dint seem to last
so i have to set him free

haa.. found this in a book.. veri veri nice.. actually it's a long poem.. but e last two paragraphs are e nicest.. lolx..

today actually wanted to buy hp.. haa.. papa mixed up nokia shop + m1shop.. sian qu.. aniwai e service @ nokia sucks lar.. haha.. =x i wan n3100 wor.. hahaa.. =D well.. after tat ate lunch.. hmm den went to plaza meet ms + my.. den got my pics.. hmm.. den went library a while.. walk walk.. haa.. and den saw e skirts at ice lemon tee $20 wor.. omg.. quite nice lorhz.. haiz.. budden bo $$$$ =( don have job oso.. sobsobz.. arrghz.. i do anitink liao lar.. i juz wanna have $$$ haiz.. hahaa.. den went home lor.. donno @ wad time i slp.. slp till 9.. den realised todae is sat.. den don haf e show i wanna watch lar.. haiz.. now 1.52am le.. sighz.. boring.. cant slp.. who cares.. haaha.. maybe being frenz is much more beta... heeheez.. no regrets bah horz.. =D lalala.. also keep on repeating jay's song "pa, wo hui lai le" almost master it le.. hehe.. goodie.. lalala.. yawnz.. maybe slping soon le lorhz.. lalaa.. i go write my story le. .long time nv write.. my readers donno fly whr haha =x

haiz.. a nitemare indeed.. i alwaez tell myself not to dream of u.. but sigh.. haa.. sian qu lar.. e dream was vividly clear lorhz.. haa.. sighz.. boring lar.. ltr go buy hp heh.. :D

A gush of pain swept thru my heart
Piercing every inch of space it can find
It's like a dagger
tat has stabbed into my fragile heart
causing it to bleed profusely

U took about 5-10mins to explain ur reasons
that u have to come to this decision
The only thing i could do is
listen to each word u say
while my heart is hurting each second

When i was going to leave
I was abit hesistant
I juz wished tat i hugged u at tat instant
But i cant bring myself to
Becuz i know i will cry in ur arms

nice anot?? lolx.. almost cried while i typed this out.. but i forced it back.. becuz i told myself i cant cry.. once i cry, im a weakling le.. heh.. not tat im afraid to cry or ashamed to cry.. juz tat.. i don wanna cry.. ppl told mi told cry so tat i wld feel better.. even if i cry i wun feel ani better it wld juz make mi even sadder.. hahaa.. =D lolx.. now 1.40am le.. i still haven slp yet.. not so tired.. but i'll slp soon.. haa.. nitenitez bahz..

It started like a tornado
And ended like a hurricane
How did things turn up this way?
I don't really know

It's all again like an illusion
Getting all blurry and milky
But I know tat this day
will come sooner or Later..

But i guess it would be better like this
duan tong bu ru chang tong [b](end earlier better than later)[/b]
ni shuo dui bu dui ner?[b](u say correct anot?)[/b]
haa.. i'm mixing chin + eng
But who da hell cares?

wo de xin zhen de hao tong hao tong
tong dao wo zi ji dou mei fa jue dao
yin wei wo yi jing xi guan tong le =D

translation
[b](my heart is really very very pain
pain until i dint realised it
bcuz i'm already used to it)[/b]

qing tian really suits wad im thinkin now..
that's y i love zhou jie lun
whaahahaha.. =D

haa.. stupid huhz?? so sian worr.. nth to do.. ytd ton at ms's hse lorhz.. haa.. den horz.. slp at 4 lydat.. don haf my bolster cannt slp lol.. den woke up at 6.50 for a while den back to slp den dream bout donno wad sai den alarm rang at 8.. shucks.. lazy to get up but have to get up.. den wash up.. den go meet xl.. halfway i realised i 4got to bring my wallet.. den i tried calling ms's hp but she called mi using her hse fone.. hmm den quickly went back to take it.. initially wanted her to throw it down.. budden when i kinda looked up.. 2 ppl were looking down at me.. tot wad i was trying to do knn siahz.. haha den suan le i go up take lor.. den was late for 10mins lydat.. hmm den go swimming pool.. 'soaked' myself in e strong bubbles pool.. lol.. kinda pain cuz my hands + legs muscles ached.. oh my god..!!! haha.. after tat went to fajar.. xc nv go sch cuz she don feel lyk going.. haa so i went to buy luncheon meat + hotdogs.. den i cooked + eat.. haa.. den play com watched mtvs.. blablabla.. den went to buy dinner.. yawnz.. sian qu la.. den here i am.. haiz.. ltr den update bahz..