. sotzlene . got me no me is e same

sigh sighz... my guess + instinct was rite.. lolx.. it's all over.. but not tat sad lar.. sian qu lorhz.. lolx.. but.. im alrite wif it lar.. haa.. yawnzz... find another one bahzz.... heeheez... hoohoooz... =| tmr going swimming wooo.. lolx.. now at ms's hse overnite.. yeah!!! lolx..

hmmm todae went to ps lor.. heh.. den go walk walk ard.. haa.. ate long john... yummy..!!! lolx.. den aft tat walked to taka thr.. den walk to far east.. look @ clothes.. OMG!!!! so nice lol.. but all so ex worr... aft i work den go $$ den go shop till i die siah hahahaa.. lolx.. =D hope gv will accept us lorr.. sighz.. samuel and kevin got one shirt.. Sibei nice worr... .!!!!! i wan!! but $26 worh.z.. worth it ma?? haa.. i oso wanna buy a shirt lor.. $19 lehz.. kaoz.. sian qu la.. = hmmm.. aft get $ den say la.. =( sobzzz... haizz... sian qu lar...

yawnzz..z.zz..zzz

yeahz... agree rite?? evry relationship has its own problems... and these problems are like challenges... different ways of solving... sighz... im now facing a problem... that's wad meishi say.. heh.. yeapz... we say alot of things.. alot of logics.. yeahz and facts.. i agree lorhz... let me quote some.. lol..

[u][i]it's as thou there's a hand grabbing my heart vvvvvvvv hard.. or a stagger tat has pierce thru my heart [/i][/u]
this one is nice... i created it.. this wounds wont seem to heal this pain is juz too real.. lolx.. no lar.. my immortal song.. haha i crazy i know la..

[i]-hm...to continue a relationship u nid courage.... [/i]
[i]-e courage to face e time u will feel left out by him....[/i]
[i]-e courage to face prob..[/i]
by meishi

yeahz.. nice one haha.. still got wor.. wait ar..

[b][i]-cuz if becuz of my attitude... they cant stand it... den so be it.... they're not meant for mi.. u say rite or wrong?
-yeah.. mian qiang mei you xing fu (forcing wun bring u happiness)
-wad's meant to be urs will eventually be urs.[/i][/b]
by ME!! lolz..

yeahz.. tat's bout it lar.. hehe.. sux... =|

haaa..a.a..a.aa hihiizz.. i reached home at bout 10+ lorhzz.. at 3.40 i went out.. cuz dear ask mi meet him at 3.45 at bp interchange.. haa.. den he was late for bout i donno how long.. cant be bothered.. lolx.. den met his so called ahyi.. amway de.. den went to amway's headquarter in sg.. den went to donno wad building @ lavendar dere.. den their toked bout vitamin a , b,c and proteins.. yeahz. i tink their products are quite gd buddenz.. if i got da $$ i 'll buy de.. but now don haf lorhz.. =x hahaaha... aft tat saw his mama.. his mama ok lar.. quite ok. dint really talked much.. but well nvm.. haa.. den sat in a lorry home.. by someone not sure who ahha name is wei ming.. haha.. yeahz.. den he walked mi home.. =.= hee.. my stupid elder bro tot i gave him flying kiss.. but well.. i wanted to... hahahaa =XXXX hahaha.. hmmmm sian qu.. den ate abit... haa

tmr going play bball yeah!! hahaha.. jian fei -.- dotzz..

haa.. now listening to this song.. shou hou.. bery nice lorhz.. haa.. hmmm ltr going out le lorhz.. sighz.. sad case de lehz.. donno meet whr oso.. haa.. e seminar at 9pm up to 10pm la.. haizz.. =/ gonna meet his mama.. hahaa.. so exciting.. and nervous.. loLx.. hmmm.. now waiting to kill time only... next song coming up.. "qing tiaN" by zhou jie lun.. omg.. so nice.. haha.. long time dint hear le lorr.. =x sooo sianz... =.=

hmm how's da subject?? nice?? lolz.. hmmm.. veri bored.. woke up at 10+ cuz mama called.. bthz.. ask mi ltr wanna go ice skating boh!!.. haha.. den ok lorhz.. i sae moi ezlink bo lui le la.. hahahaha =x hmmz.. ytd went to appeal multimedia computing at np lor.. sighz really scared cannot lehz.. cuz horz.. haiz i oso donno lar.. =( if not i go kill myself.. =x hahahahahaaa........... yawnz... den aft tat go bpp go makan kfc.. e new shrooms burger.. donno how to speLL la.. lolx.. =x den go xl hse.. blablabla.. den go play pool.. woo.. loLx.. din really play muchz.. after tat go find dearzz.. haahaa.. =x gave him sth nice.. lolz.. =D den aft tat walked really v slow home.. den i don wan go home yet.. wanna send him home but he don wan let mi send him home hahaa.. too bad.. den walked to e playgrnd go tok tok blablabla.. hmm den love metre shot up lar.. hahaa.. =D heeez.. too bad lar.. cant giv him e 2nd thing.. wanted to.. butdon dare hahahahahhaahhaahhaha.. BLehZzz... =p aiyoh. stomachache.. brb

sian arrr... haiz... headache.... =x shuckz... IdiotIc piEce of sHItZz..zz luv him lots lots... heehee..

cant get into the courses i wan!! tmd.. haiz.. nvm lor.. go appeal again.. see how.. if they still don wan me den suan le lorRrr.. =( hahaa.. sighz.. suckz manz.. almost cried out.. but well dint.. hee.. =X hmmm.. don care le lar.. : hahahaa.a.. ltr den update lorrr

*dEaRzz.. I mIsSs yA =( HaiZzz.. i wanna Hug yaaa sobsob*

sobsobzx.. he's leaving for pulau ubin todae till sundae.. hahaa.. yeahz.. sad horz.. =| hao she bu de worZz.. : haizzz.. so boring now.. juz now went to plaza wif xL and xc.. walk walk lorz.. nth much lar.. den went to greenridge she wanna buy vcd lar.. haa.. hmmmz.. gonna bathe soon damn hot la.. idiotic sia..

aniwai on my way home juz now.. got one uncle wanna kajiao me.. he clap his hands wanna attract my attention den sae wad "hello.. ni yao qu na li?" he was toking to me......... of cuz lar...... all the other workers are either indians or others.. den ha i dao him of cuz.. blehz.. : like v arrogant huh? well not reaLLy.. cuz i donno who e fark is he lor.. y shld i stop and tok to him nehz?? u sae correct anot lehz? hahaa.. sighz.. now listening to **my heart will go on** bthz.. haiz.. so sad..



heh.. this was taken on 4mar.. hee.. my dear and me.. donno whr i looking.. still got others lar.. nxt time den put up!! LoLx

gonna rain again?? donno lar.. hhaha feel v cold now.. having a morning flu.. sucks!!! lolxz.. hmmm woke up not long ago.. feeling so tired and blurry.. hahaha.. hmMm.. LtR den update bout todae.. e day is still sooo young yeah?? loLx..

hmm ytd went to haf dinner wif deaRzz.. hee.. eat at tat qi ji lorhz.. sounds like miracle.. haha.. den he ordered mee rubus, nasi lemak + popiah.. haa.. den tok tok tok.. den aft tat he sent me to mrt station.. going to suntec.. yeah and he went back to work.. haa.. kaoz.. e journey to suntec took bout 30mins.. by e time i reach carrefour i gtg soon.. cuz tat ian so slow.. haa.. but well.. too bAdz.. haa.. den went to mac there wanna drink tea but instead tat person gimmi milo.. well.. muz be god don wan let mi drink tea oso.. =x hahaa.. nvm.. oso gd wait i kena hoot haha.. blehZzz... =p hmmm.. den nature's call la.. v urgent den go toilet lolx.. den took bus so mani ppl wtf?? lolx.. e bus b4 tat so little ppl.. haha.. den he keep on guessing wad's inside the paper bag.. hahaa.. it's my precious tarepanda lor.. hee.. until i let him see den he noe kekekez.. he tot is hamster wor.. haha.. dotzz.. hmm.. yeahz..

when i at my doorstep le.. he was at da lift there.. i keep on lookin there and smiling haa.. den when i finally went in.. my mother ask mi who i smiling at.. omg.. haha.. i sae my fren.. den sae boyfren ar.. i sae no la.. girl de.. haha.. =x well.. sighz.. not tat i wanna lie.. haa.. juz tat.. laallal.a hahha.. =x don blame me.. hmmm..

den tat ian keep on asking mi to buy vodka for him.. humph!! i wun!! lolz.. ask him to eat shit lorhz.. =x

hmMmm now's raining.. sian qu lorhz.. ltr going out at 5+ bahz.. yawnz.. no peepz onlinE.. more sianz.. heeheEz.. feel like slping.. haiz.. k la.. i go koon a whilez.. =x hhahahaa missing deaRz aLwaez wOrhZz.z.z.z.z muackieZz... =p cant wait to see ya hehe..

haiz.. left $3 le lorhz.. arghz.. sux worhz.. how to survive lehz?? cant go out le lorhz.. sobsob ahha.a.a.a.aaa siao liaoz.. hmmmm dint do anitink much todae lorhz.. juz vacuumed e floorr.. and others lar.. tat stupid kevin don wan come home mop flooR .. knnz.. made mimi so angry lorhz haa.. still argued back siahz.. wth manz.. haahahahaa.. den tat stupid donation thingy.. wasted my $2 haiz.. no money left still wanna donate?? wtf manz.. hahaa.. but.. sighz... ytd come tat one.. sighx.. wanna go swimming de.. arghxz. hahaa.. too bad laRr..z.z.z.z.zzz yaWnzZz... miss him sooo muchie lehz.. haizz... hmmmm... yawnz..

lalalala i wanna work but no work lehz.z.z.zzzz sighz.... wish can work at factoRy den eaRN fast $$ hahaa.. bud don dare to call yet.. next wk baz.. haizz.. =| haizz... i wanna slp le la.. so tirEd.. eyes wANna close leeee... :(

wei ser mer zhe yang zi??? haa/.. sighz... ytd nit efeeling moody.. sucky siahz.. maybe too tired le ba??? arGhzz... juz nw evelyn smsed me.. haa.. scary sia.. i don wan go out wif her LOrhZz.. hAiz.. wasting time + $$ only lorhz.. sighzz... idiotic piecE of shiTa.. sIghzZ.. arghzz.. slp for bout 9 hrs.. wth siahz.. had dreams.but donno wad la.. forget already.. sighz. =( donno lAr.. sian qu lorhz...................................................... gonna be dead.. ahaha tat one coming le bA??? lol..

hmmmz.. todae is the 1wk we've been together le.. haaz.. and we met for 5times le.. yeap kept a record.. lolx.. siao ritE? nahz hai hao lar.. lolx.. hmmm.. im officially 18 ytd =D hahaa.. yeah manz.. can buy cigarettes + beer le.. heeeee.. yeah yeah yeah.. so sianz.. missin him now.. hahaa.. he's going to work.. haa..

ytd i went to find him after his work lorr.. i was in bugis.. waited for bout half an hr?? cuz i was earLy.. haaha.. sian qu lar.. den horz.. he came.. sae da pressie.. it was nice.. really like it.. but it's quite big though.. lolx.. but nvm.. heh.. den after tat walk walk ard for a whilE.. den donno whr to go den go find iaN at ps.. den sianz la.. xl and him don wan let mi put tattoo.. sad.. den nvm lor.. 1 is my best fren 1 is my boifren.. all e bfs.. haa.. xl threatened me.. so wad can i do lehZ??? haa.. den LC oso don wan let mi put.. den sae wad next time he bring me home den how hahaa.. yea.. hmmm den went to mac .. ian saw donno who.. den suddenly saw caro.. haa.. : yeahz.. den took 190 go home lor.. den his mama called.. den donno wad happen he sounded so frustrated or sth.. den he sae maybe his mama noe bout us lor.. hmm blablalba.. den aft alighting @ my stop.. my stomach felt abit pain lor.. donno wad happeNz.. den walked slowly.. haa.. den he tot i angry.. dotz.. hmm den ian and mi asked him to go home first.. den he asked ian to send mi to e void deck lor.. aft tat ian sae he wanna drink vodka.. den i sae i at home got hooch.. i bring down lor.. den he drank bout half da bottle. wahkaoz.. i wanna drink de.. idiotic ,, hgaha.. den blablabla..

den dear sms me ask mi whether i alrite.. he v worried.. i sae yeah.. not bad le.. den ask him how's he v worried bout him .. den he sae he's alrite and he now tokin to his mother.. den isae don disturb him lorz.. hmm.. den after tat he sms mi whether i slp le ma.. den i sae no den he called me.. den he sae he told his mother bout us le.. den sae wad giv her some time to accept it cuz she's abit fan rite now.. cuz of some family probs.. uncle la grandmother la.. his father la.. dotdotz.. den feel v pressurized.. haa.. he oso got mention "i hope ah.. i really hope tat we will last..." den i continue "till e end of time??" den he sae "yeah sure" den i sae "if u work towards it den can le lor.." den he sae "yeah.. and oso if u work towards it" yeahz.. hahaa.. he's sooo nice.. blehz..

todae not sure whether going suntec anot lehz.. kinda rushy.. haa.. arghz..

haa.. yeah.. in less than 48hrs it'll be my birthdae.. i can buy vodka le loRrr.. hEehee.. im finally 18!!!! woooo.. sibei sonG arr!!!.. hahAHah.. sighzZ..

den tmr going play pool wif xL first.. den jl, ms n my will come join us.. haa.. i tink play till 5+ liddat lor.. den go marina south.. heh!! go eat steamboat.. yeahZz..

oh yeah.. my and ms bought me jay's poster!!!! OMG...!!!! iloVE it hehee.. aNd a Liquid lipstick.. heh.. niceeeesh!!! thankz to both of ya.. cheerS =p todae my and ms came to my hse.. my wanna teach us how to make tat chocolate flake thingy.. not bad lar.. haa.. den went to bpp walk walk lorr.. yeapz.. sighz.. yawnzz..

yeah.. xL gave me a bracelet.. =p niceeesh.. tmr i tink im wearing it?? haa.. yeA!!! sighz.. sian qu lar... i wanna buy tat one in bpp de.. bud don haf orange de.. i wnana buyh alot of thing siahz... haiz...

haha.. wassup manz.. todae Rot at hoME.. sian qu.. nth to do.. slept in e evening loRz.. haa.. now watching guess.. so farnie.. hahAa.. tmr going out le.. wif.. *aheM* yeaH!! loLz.. miss him alotzz worzz.. = hahAa..

farking mosquitoes attacked me... idiotz.. cuz of ytd's rain and they all are trying to breed le.. tmd.. farking creatures.. my forehead oso don wanna let off.. idiotzz.. so itchyz... arrghzz.. damnzz.. hai wo slp for only 3hrs.. now cannt go back to slp le lar.. no mood to slp le larr.z.z.z. fookzz... :( IdiotIcz..

heez... yeahz.... i guess im in love againz... even after 5yrs... haa.. haiz.. budden can last how long... but i wun bother bout that now... i'll juz enjoy evry moment i spend wif him?? hahaa.. yeahz... wad if his feelings suddenly disappear like darren's? sighz.. wun i be hurt again neRz? but well.. since god wanna torture me liddat i oso nothing to sae... cuz it's my fate.. heezz... sianzz...