. sotzlene . got me no me is e same

tmd.. farker siahz.. anihow change my channel.. was watching channel U den he change.. i asked him not to le.. but he still changed.. he got regard mi as his sister anot.. nabeiz.. don tok to him le la.. idiotic creaturez.. make my mood sucks.. farkerz.. nehbu!! arghz damn angry till my blood is boiling!!! =( haizz.. sux la.. he's a loser.. big loser.. humph!! hu cares..

ha.. todae is e first dae i wore my contact lens.. few mins ago i juz put it in.. v pain.. and itchy and scratchy.. haa.. well.. 3-4months nv wear wad do ya expecT? loLx.. if i wanna hav clear vision den muz wear lor.. so ez.. loLx.. at least now my eyes are getting used to it le.. =D haa.. well later going to woodlaNds.. = sooo boring now.. no peeps onliNez..

hoho todae went to orchard rd.. haa.. hmm at first we went to centrepoint posb bank there make my's and ms's atm card lorhz.. there got little ppl heng la.. haha.. den after tat go makan.. cuz me and my v hungry la.. loLx.. i ate noodles cuz i cannot eat hard thing.. siaNz.. hmm den walked to heeren den visit caro.. lol.. she wear specs more chio keke.. den go paragon find bro philip lol.. aniwai todae i wore black sunglasses out cuz my right eye still swollen la.. budden now is much much better can see e eye lid le. haa..

den we walked to far east.. i bought one shirt.. haa.. the one i've been wanting to buy de.. after tat we wanna go to chinatown there.. den got a perfume man stop us.. well he sae buy one get another one free.. den me and ms share $$ buy.. tat perfume usual price is about $70 and we bought it for $10 haa.. meaning total is $20 lor.. lol.. e smell not bad la.. can last longer.. better than xl's godsister tat one.. =x oops haha.. well it's e fact.. =D lolx.. den we went to c.k i bought two sleeveless shirts.. yeahz.. quite nice la.. =D shopping day huh?? lolx.. i luv shopping worr.. next thing i wanna buy ish skirTz.. =P maybe 2 or 3 skirts lor.. den 2 more shirts and 2 pasar malam shirt. =D so mani ting to buy aR? oh yeah i tink i gtg take my contact lens le la.. haiz~~ after i type this.. den go bah take asap lor.. don wanna delay animore.. =D i wanna wear it!! loLx.. yeap.. den after buying shirt we go drink sugarcane.. den there got lion dance so noisy wor.. haa.. den go eat porridge.. i eat only la.. haa.. donno y they don wan eat oso.. = haa.. den go home.. orchard rd route close due to e donno wad chingay la.. haa.. yeah.. den liddat lor.. haa.. gtg le, buaiz

haa.. ytd went for the operation.. kinda scary la.. yeah.. aniwai ytd took pa's motorbike den it was raining.. suddenly it became heavy.. omg.. den my in front was drenched.. sian qu la.. den oso got traffic jam.. more sian.. haha.. den papa stopped at the esso gas station.. den he flagged a taxi for moi.. dotz.. hmm den e taxi was veri coLd siahz.. den e taxi driver v wad.. don understand wad i saeing.. muz repeat 2 times.. loLX.. hmm den lucky reached there a few mins late liddat bahz.. den papa reach le.. hmm den waited for a while for papa to sign some things.. den it was 10+ i was waiting for my turn.. i tink im the last patient.. damnz.. den waited till 1.25 liddat.. b4 tat i took a nap.. den when it was my turn the nurse woke me up den muz put donno wad sai into my nose.. she said it's bitter.. i tink it's not it's v er xin la.. like donno wad shit.. haha.. den when i was in the op theatre hor.. they wanna poke e needle on my hand den no blood came out or sth.. sian.. den make it v pain knn.. now abit swollen.. humph!! den they poke it thru the side of my wrist.. haa.. next thing i knew they were beating it.. and my eyes were closing slowly.. den i donno le.. i dint noe i was slping.. haa.. it's like dead for a moment.. bth haa.. den when i wanna wake up le.. the nurse sae op over le.. haa.. budden my right eye cannot open.. sian.. den i rested hoping that it could be better.. den heard the nurses toking donno wad.. i was like in a daze.. den my throat irritated.. donno y.. keep on coughing liddat.. sianz.. den papa came at 3+ haa.. den a doc came sae maybe it's an allergic reaction.. bud mostly is both eyes de.. but mine is only one eye.. they say is unusual lol.. sotz.. den the nurses keep on staring at my eye.. haha.. den they gave me ate some medicine to make e swelling go down.. haa.. den went home.. argh reached home too late.. cuz mama sae she nv buy toto.. if not she'll win den can pay me back doubLe.. den she sae nvm.. stilll got monday.. haa.. i'm havin hiccups now.. hmmm gtg eat my medicine le.. =D cya

h@iZ.. ytd dono y.. cant slp well.. haa.. stupid.. den alwaez waking up.. due to some noises.. useless.. my throat hurts.. donno y oso.. sighz.. =( boring.. 2 more hrs to my operation.. ytd papa was drunk sian qu.. made a mess on da floor. knn.. haa.. donno whether he can send mi anot.. shucks manz.. =( well.. gotta wake him up in half an hr's time. pray hard for me for my op to be successful hee. :D

hoho!! today went to get the cheque.. it's only $353.25 not bad la.. still it's $350+ haaha!!

when we reached jurong station le.. xiaodi still haven reach yet.. so waited for him.. den we think maybe he'll wear the bright blue shirt again.. hah!! anyway.. i tink he donno how to da ban(dress up) well.. i like to notice the dressing of the guy.. cuz i tink that guy's clothes are nice.. hahaa.. and esp when they wear BLACK shirt... THEY ARE VERY HANDSOME... wow!!! hmm.. today philip wear black also very handsome la.. haa.. yeah enuff of crapz.. den the journey to tanah merah was veri boring.. nothing to do.. haa.. juz praying that we'll get $400++ haa.. sighz.. den it was raining.. borrowed my umbrella to xiaodi.. den i shared wif meishi.. hmmz.. when reach there le.. no ppl was there.. they go for lunch break.. bth.. den we go hawker centre drink.. den got lion dance so noisy =x ahaha.. den took some pics.. heh!! den go back take e cheque

after tat we went to bugis there the dbs branch cash in the cheque.. hmm.. den walked ard bugis village for a while.. den went to orchard.. e bus to orchard sooo cold sia.. den tat xiaodi stupid de.. got jacket don wan to lend us.. he's not a guy siahz.. humphz!! den we go OG find xL haa.. tat time dint manage to find her cuz we went to e wrong building.. duh!@! =.= aniwai.. this time we went to e correct building.. den xl sae i copy her -.- sotz.. if i copy her.. den she copy others le lor? haa jkjk.. hmm den she sae daren more shuai den xiaodi.. bud well.. hu cares? haa.. i got lewis le =x hahaa.. den after tat we wanted to find philip.. lucky i call him if not he go to chinatown oreadi.. haa.. den he still as shuai la.. lolx.. den we took mani pics.. hehe!! den he bought for mi vodka wor.. unlike that xiaodi don wan help mi buy humph!! lolx.. so nice.. hmm.. den after tat go home lorz.. wad else can we do? lolx.. budden.. i wanted to take my contact lens.. den horz.. went home and take the receipt.. den accom meishi go fajar go develop e pics.. haa.. tmr gonna make mine. =p hmm too gan chiong le la.. blehz.. hmm.. den i go lot1` there lor.. hmm on e lrt got one mad guy siahz.. at first he look at my direction.. den i tot wad tink.. den i realised he lookin at the tv.. e advertisement.. den.. he suddenly luff.. donno for wad la.. i bet tat the ppl inside tat lrt oso tinking the same as me.. haa.. sotz one.. hmmm.. den i reach e optical shop le.. hmm wanted to use my atm card purchase de.. budden declined two times.. kaoz damn xia suay de wor.. den she told mi muz wait at least two days.. bth siahz.. haz.. lucky i still got some cash on me.. haa!! aniwai.. my mother wanna borrow $100 from me bahZ? knn de.. haiz.. nvm lorhz.. aniwai next week i oso cannot go out.. haiz... den she sae she willl return mi de.. donno can believe anot haizz =( haaa..

wad a long entry.. haa.. gonna read till u gone case aR? haha.. haiz.. gtg le.. typed too long le.. haa.. buaizz..

yeay!! tmr can get the cheque le worr.. yeah!! finally lorr.. can go shopping le heehee!!! =p keke.. haiz.. bud need to jian fei first hahaha!! =x aniwai.. juz nw go plaza for fun la.. oso chao sian.. saw mani fajarians aesian ccksian swisscottage de.. my god.. haa.. sian qu laa.. all xiao ginas.. =x oops hahaa.. bLehx.. now so sianz la.. nth to do oso.. wahahahaa. im so happiiiiii ar.. juz now mi and meishi jumped for joy haa.. bth.. and shouted.. ppl tot we sotz.. lolxx.. bud well hu caress.. tat tupid guy hp nv on.. so too badz..

todae went to mrs tang hse bainian lor.. got $4 haa.. all spend finish.. todae spent $15.50 haa.. sian qu.. haa.. her sons so cute worhz.. lol.. well.. stay ard for a few hrs.. others were chatting lar.. den i juz listen lorhz.. hee.. after tat.. we left at 5+ bah? haa.. den ate long john yeah!! lol.. nicessh.. blehz.. den waited for jL lorhz.. wahlau.. he luffed at us for wearing so 'feminine' isit? knn.. he still sae y bainian i wear liddat.. nb.. den sae wad can wear normal anot.. plz lor.. i whr got wear abnormal siahz? farker la he.. haa but he helped mi buy hooch.. wahkaoz.. the 711 de nv ask for his ic.. wahaha.. bth.. den he sae he last yr already try buying den guo guan lor.. sian qu.. hmm den went to jL hse a while.. hai go there oso sianz.. wasting moi time only la.. haiz..

stuupid.. i wanna go shopping lar bud no $$ yet lorhz.. farkz.. the stupid cheque haven giv us yet.. tmr i calling lorhz.. so frustrated le.. haiz.. stupid idiot sae hopefully this week.. still got 1 1/2 hr more den next week le la.. fOokz.. =( hope that they wld gif us more lorhz.. haiz.. sian qu la.. = haa.. no peeeps online now.. sian la.. feel like slping lorhz.. haa.. bud haf to wash the plates.. arGhzx.. bud first i wanna do moi business lolx = gtg le.. if i not online den tmr morning i'll be online.. not sure whether gonna go gym tmr la.. bud seems to me evry one is tired so nvm bahz.. = hee.. tata

haa.. chu san hav no whr to go.. yanting asked mi go hanlong's hse bud.. sigh donno lor don feel like going
lorhz.. aiyah i go do business first..

back le.. hmm sianz.. ytd go ms's grandma hse bainian.. hmm got 4 hongbaos.. den gamble abit.. won $4.80 liddat la.. haa.. todae actually wanna go ms hse de.. budden aiyah lazy and den don wanna b so greedy lolz.. so now here i am.. typing moi blog.. lol.. and it's sat.. 5 more days to my operation.. arghz.. so scary.. lolx.. hao koNg bu wor..

i wanna change hp ar.. sighz.. i wan colour fone.. = lol.. sotz le la.. no peeps online.. hai .. sianz.. well.. gtg le.. nth much to update hee.. = tata..

todae went to auntie susie's hse for reunion dinner worr.. hee.. eat quite full.. haa.. drank alot oso.. = hahaa.. siaNz.. tmr can get hong bao le.. yeah!!! lolx.. todae nothing much happen la.. haiz.. so bored lorhz.. now watching nutty professor.. lol.. so farnie worr.. hmm.. cant slp tonite.. cuz v sian .. lol.. haix.. tmr den update baHz. nitenitex..

juz nw in e evening went swimming.. not really swimming la.. juz lazing ard in the water haha.. first we go to the bubbles pool.. sit, chat and play ard for bout half an hr.. den the wave pool started e wave le.. den go into the wave pool to play.. heh@! quite fun.. hmm bud no shuai ge de.. s|anz qu.. saw weiqi and indra.. more sianz haa.. = den.. 7.35 we left and changed den went to lot1 wanted to buy a comb.. hmm den ate octopus balls niceesh!! den ate ice cream only 50cents wor.. tat person muz haf charged wrongly.. bud well hu cares? lol.. den saw woRld of sPorts haa.. den went to e cinema there see whether got e postcards haa.. only got one type sian qu.. den saw kheng loon and zhenghao.. chatted for bout 1min.. lol.. den go home le ba..

haa.. den ms told mi that she tinks it wld be better for mi to giv him up.. i oso tink so.. so i tink that i will giv him up lor.. = haa. sighz. den i made a poem

..+ Ending +..

After a long consideration
i've finally come to a decision
that is giving u up
As i would only waste my time
If i wouldnt wan to take the first move

It's a tough battle
That's going on in my brain
In the end, the angel wins
and the devil lost

I know that this is the only choice left
Becuz u're leaving for a long time
Couldnt expect me to wait for u
Cuz im not that kind of person
So i've chosen this path
And has to walk thru the end
Not looking bAck and regret
Then i know im making the right choice

However there are fond memories
that u left for me to remember
If only u took the first move
Then I wouldnt be suffering in silence

Really hope that i've made e right choice
cuz i wldnt wan to regret in e end
But wad i did not regret
is getting to know u
And having some feelings for u


kinda sad huh? haa.. bud well.. it's for my own gd yeh? haha.. den i can go back to lewis.. hah!! yeah lewis is still my number 1.. *muacks* haha.. yeah. aniwai i don feel sad or wad la.. i mean.. hmm.. perhaps it's only juz a crush =) so.. it will end tat soon heh!!

haloz.. tried v hard to understand which is which.. haa.. soo.. this is wad i managed to do la.. quite simple i noe.. bud.. oso quite nice la.. haa.. = woke up at ard 8+ sighz.. ate breakfast le.. sianz.. todae is 20th le.. 9 more daes to my operation.. haiz.. sad casee.. donno wad to type.. sianzz

Time passes so slowly
Outside seem so snowy
I'm feeling so gloomy
My heart seem so achy

Why must i be feeling this way?
It isnt my fault
You juz turned and walked away
LEaving me all alone here
How could u treat me like this?
and What hav i done
to suffer like this?
But it's also good
Cuz i neednt face a jerk like you

You tink u're alwaez right.
But actually u're wrong
Ppl juz hate the way u are
it's only u dint noe

My only regret
is getting to noe u
But since u choose to end it
Den so be it
I don gif a damn
in anitink u do
Luckily i dint offer my
Whole heart to u
If not it wld be destroyed
innocently

Juz leave and dont
ever let me see u again
If not u'll be condemned
by the one and only me.

this poem is only for fun la.. sianz den anihow write.. haa.. aniwai.. i cant stand the sight of my blog.. it look soooo ugly?? haiz.. cuz of the farking new settings.. tmd.. so confusing.. i bet mani ppl are oso having e same situation as me ba? ha..

life is so boring nowadaes
cuz there no money in my pocket
so i cant go aniwhr
but juz stay at home and rot!!!

haa.. crazy la.. im obsessed wif this kinda thingy le.. sian qu wor.. woke up at 10.45 haa.. slp for v long le lehz.. heE.. had a nitemare.. dreamt that 2 girls not happi wif mi den alwaez like wanna fight wif mi.. knn.. we were all selling... SHOES!! haa.. 2nd time i dreamt of selling shoes.. maybe i missed selling shoes bah? ha.. oso donno.. soooo sianz.. edna juz now smsed mi go out.. bud sighz.. i haven take pay yet.. = hahaa....... haiz

haa.. todae went to chinatown.. we reached there on time.. bud he ner.. haha.. came 35mins late.. lol when ms called him.. he still sae he at bukit batok.. wahh.. haha really wanna hoot him.. =x hmm.. den we went to og walk walk ard haha.. den.. saw the philips brand.. wakkaa.. den remembered brother philip.. wakak.. den ms sae brother philip don haf s.. den mi and my tink of philip don haf ass.. wakaka.. den i luffed till i cried.. so farnie wor.. lol.. hmm den we went to the hawker centre to makan.. e sell drinks de.. v wad la.. haven sit down yet den ask us wad to drink.. knn den we sae later.. den donno wad sai she sae.. den sae wad the chairs belong to the stall selling roasted duck blablabla.. den make us scared.. knn.. lol.. den mi and my ordered roasted duck rice.. den ms hainan chicken rice.. den got 3 ppl nv ask us den share table wif us nb.. so rude.. lol.. liddat nvm lor.. we let them.. cuz they our senior citizens.. den ky come le.. at first sit b/w mi and ms.. den the old man smoked.. den ms don like.. den i asked ky to change place with ms.. piang.. that old man sucks.. =x ooopz.. hmm den hor.. the roasted duck SOoooOooo erxin!!! the meat so like.. i donno.. like got super glue liddat.. and so much fats.. kaoz.. the rice so oily.. wad kinda stall is tat man.. lol.. next time don wan eat there le.. hmm after that walked ard chinatown.. wahseh.. so squeezy lor.. so mani ppl la.. kaoz one.. hmm.. den walked for donno how long la.. den we took pics at the mrt there.. lol.. farnie siahz.. ky almost made mi fall.. den he sae wo hui fu zhe ni de.. den he went down to ask a guy to help us take pic.. hmm den horz.. ms told my.. ni you mei you ting dao?? haha.. sotz one la.. den i wanted to sae.. i fall already how to fu le?? haa.. den after that.. go the ctrl station cuz he wanna top up.. den i picked up a balloon in the dustbin lol.. den ms hit ky head.. den i oso hit ky head.. so farnie.. den i wanna make him again.. he made the rebound almost hit the person in frnt of him.. heng siahz.. bth haha.. den we went to orchard.. with the intention of finding xL.. bud couldnt find her nor dominic.. sigh sad cas.e. search the whole building le.. bud well maybe.. they went for lunch break le?? haa.. nvm lor.. too bad.. haa.. den we went to HMV there the building.. i bought the icecream so ex $2 wor.. but quite nice.. haa..den cuz caro working there den shun bian see her lor.. hmm she cut her hair le.. quite chio haha.. den i wanted to drink hooch again.. hee.. den he bought.. lol.. den i drank quite fast.. hmmm.. he like so called "concern" for mi la.. haa.. bth.. den i realli almost drunk.. not almost la.. still can tink clearly.. heh!! den we sit down talk.. a while.. hmm aft that went to cineleisure hmm.. den we go the top level rest lor.. rest for bout 15-20mins liddat.. hmm den we asked ky those qian bian qns.. lol.. mostly he donno e ans de.. lol.. hmm aniwai i touched his hand accidentally.. omg.. lol.. hmm den i sae i wan famous amos.. he sae eat finish a proper meal den buy.. budden there the fast food see le sianz qu lor.. haa.. den ms suggest go the foodcourt eat.. den on da way out he aasked mi whether i wan anot.. bring home eat.. i sae don wan le.. so gd horz.. oopx jk la.. den go to the foodcourt le.. see e food oso v sian.. lol.. tink v long wad to eat.. den ms bring me go see the ban mian bud.. i rather eat fishball noodles.. lol.. den i gave ky two fishballs and my one fishball.. haha.. yeah.. den he wanted to treat us drink budden i cannot force anitink more down my throat.. lol.. so don wan.. ms and my oso don wan.. hahaa.. munyu's name become meiyu.. bth.. luff till i cry wor.. damn farnie den i sae ms name become munshi.. hahaHAh.. =x hmm.. den we walked to the busstop lor.. den go home.. haa.. ms ask mi i happi anot.. i sae y shld i be happi or sad.. lol.. haiz.. den ms v tired.. almost fell aslp standing.. lol.. hmm my told mi that maybe she tinks ky bluffin lor.. cuz maybe ms my good fren den don dare tell.. lol.. den i told her.. don tink too much la.. hahaa.. siaNz qu.. ok.. it's end of todae's activities.. long huh.. confusing oso .. haha.. =x

now v sianz.. haiz.. nth to do.. still so earli.. haa.. no show to watch oso..

the style for this sucks.. bud i'll try to change it if im free and in da mood.. cuz now.. v tired and not in da mood.. lolx.. = hmm.. guess wad? it's sooo not shocking to me =) cuz i long ago knew it.. bud i chose to tink too much lorhz.. lol.. hmmm sian wor..

made another song again./. lol.. different feeling this time.. no more in love.. is juz a v v v sad song..

Knowing the truth
Is not that shocking to me
It so proof
That im juz tinking too much

But you cant fully blame me
bcuz ur actions
are so misleading
I juz hav to parish the thot of being wif u

So much left unsaid
SO much left undone
This might be the end
of me and u
Never knew it wld end up this way
Dint know y i played myself this way
Ending up quite sad
But i juz hav to find
another guy to like

Even thou it's like this
Bud i noe it's meant to be
Cuz u told me not long ago
What's meant to be urs will be urs
What's not meant to be urs will nv be urs

I find this unseemingly true
Since the dae i got hurt realli badly
So don't ever remind me
For i knew it long ago

Life still goes on
With or without u
If not what?
Kill myself and end evrythinG?
you muz be mad..

the title is truth.. ha.. i created 4 songs.. ytd mi and XL created this.. title "Regret"

When i see you,
I wouldnt know to do
But my heart tell me
that i miss you very much

Sitting all alone in the room
I began thinking the gd memories we once had
But it's all over and it will nv happen again

How i wish i had a time machine
to send me back
into the first day i know u
Having the feeling of happiness

Wondering whether to let you go or keep you in my heart
The pain is killing me
Why must you leave me with such memorable memories
That even i try my best
I still could not erase them off my mind
Can you tell me what should i do?
Im drowning in this pool of memories
Can anyone save me?

I wanted very much to let you know
How much i Love u
But everytime when i almost tell u
I took a step backward and kept it to myself

Now i really regret
Maybe we are fated to know each other
but not fated to be together..

~.<~ sad huh? lol.. blehz.. .gtg slp le.. nitez>

this morning woke up at 6.30 haa.. -.- hmm den got ready and left home bout 8 liddat.. found out that the stupid ezlink card cannot top up.. den muz use $2.50 to outram.. sian qu.. den went to NHB dint noe whr to go.. hah.. so i used my common sense.. take blood muz go clinical lab.. so i went there.. and a ha!! it was correct.. lucky for me.. if nt v xia suay.. lol.. hmm den still earli the ticket office haven open yet.. den waited till 10+ during tat time go mac eat.. lol.. after tat.. go bugis lor.. reached bugis ard 10.40 liddat.. den walked ard.. go toilet so mani times.. lol.. hmm.. aiyah got alot of thing to write.. wait write le v blur.. lol..

aniwai v sianz.. haa.. -.- donno ms todae ask wad qns to ky.. haa.. sianz..

juz now go bpp, den horz.. alot ppl wor.. saw e vcds i want..!! sighz.. add together almost $150 liddat.. sighz.. sad case de woRr.r. =( nvm.. i don buy the xi jie shao nian first.. lol.. =p hai saw alot of clothes todae.. s onice.. bud cant buy sian qu~~!~!

hmm this ish another song i create lolx =

Ever since i set my eyes on you
My world seems to be so much brighter
Wanting to see you even if it's a glimpse
Wanting to be by your side even if it's only for a second

Ever since i know i'm in luv wif u
My heart seems to be missing u every ticking second
Wanting so much to tell you how i feel
Wanting so much to be with you

Why can't i have the courage to say
How much i love you
Why has it to be this way?
Letting each chances go by unknowingly
Must i be the one to take the initiative?
What if the answer is negative?
How am i supposed to take it?
But if that's the case
I will learn how to let you go bcuz i luv u too much

Only you can make me feel this way
This feeling is so special
It's only once in a blue moon
That I'm able to feel the special feeling

Only if you tell me you're feeling the same as me
Then i wouldnt be so lovesick
I will be extremely delighted
To finally know that we are meant for each other

hmm so how's it?? lolx.. kinda i donno.. blehz.. haiz.. juz bath finish.. *smells nice* lol.. so refreshin worhz.. =.= keke.. so boring now siahz.. = haha.. hmm wondering whether to fwd him msg.. sighz.. juz fwd bahz.. he no reply den his business le lorhz.. =x hahaa..

meishi told mi juz now she and my bo liao den wanna help mi donno wad sai la.. lol.. hmm den sae wad he sae mi as sand.. aiyah it's all crapz de lorhz.. ahhahaa.. fate lies in our hands !!!!!!!! =x lol.. haiz.. aniwai i got tink of an idea to some how ask him lorhz.. hmm.. dis is wad i imagine la.. =

me: hey let mi ask u a qns.. wad if i sae i like u.. wld u believe me?
ky: ah? u like me? cannot be la.. don joke wif me lor..
me: wad if i sae i'm serious..
ky: hmm.. sorry wor.. i don like u..
me: ~.<~>
end le.. lol.. keke.. sotz le lor.. =| ahahaha.. wait meishi see this kill mi.. sae wad i sotz.. crazy, insane, mad.. lol.. =p hee.. im INSANE!!!

heyz.. i wrote a song.. lol.. here's the lyrics.. the melody i haven created yet lohz.. haha..

Every time when i close my eyes
I see u standing in front of me
With that usual smile of yours
That can make my heart melt

It was only a few days ago
That u were by my side
Enjoying most of your company
Is already enough for me

Sometimes i really wonder
Should i give up or continue?
Did u get my hint?
Or do you feel the same as me?
Only God knows those answers
To those questions I have
The only thing i could do is
Wait for God to tell me the answers

Every time when i look into your eyess
There's this feeling of happiness
Swirling in my heart, soul and mind
I don't know why i feel this way

It was only weeks ago
That I first saw you
I never thought that
It would be you my heart is missing

Sometimes i really wonder
Should i give up or continue?
Did u get my hint?
Or do you feel the same as me?
The only thing I could do is.......
Wait for God to tell me the answers


so how's the lyrics? lol.. kinda sad huh?? well.. it's some sort of my feelings.. and "my luv for him" hahaa.. sot la.. siaN qu la.. hu cares.. yawnz.. woke up exactly at 8am.. cuz my bladder full.. lol. so muz release.. blehz.. den cant get to slp le.. den asked papa for the letter box key.. i donno y i keep on saying newspaper key.. wakaka.. kena mixed up le la.. hmm.. den.. y i muz ask for the letterbox key ner? cuz maybe todae will get the transit cheque.. haiz.. if todae don haf i go tiao lou si sa le la.. or borrow frm hu ner?? sighz.. so siaNz.. nth to do worhz.. feel like slping.z...zz.z

haa.. juz woke up.. at 9 lorhz.. kena awaken by a stupid fone.. sian lar.. idiotic piece of shit.. hmmm let mi sae my dream..

it's kinda scaryz.. i tink it was aft new yr.. got $$ le.. den i went to this hse.. look like auntie doris and doesnt look like lor.. den look like uncle john bud doesnt look like.. not sure la.. like an imitation of them.. den got this guy.. not sure who is he. nv see him b4.. hmm.. den the 'uncle john' v bian tai de.. haha.. sianz.. den 'auntie doris' wanna kill him.. donno y.. for abuse ba? lolx.. den next dae.. die le.. keke.. den i called police.. v kong bu.. donno wad to sae.. den v wad la.. den police come.. 'auntie doris' become like insane la.. hai sad case.. ha.. den the person in charge.. v shuai.. wakaa.. =x den wake up le.. lol

hAiz.. so siaNz.. this aftnoon and juz now at nite i fwd him msg lorhz.. aftnoon de he dint haf ani reply.. den at nite de he fwd mi a msg lar.. hmmm both msg i sent is quite rou ma de la.. haha.. donno whether he'll get the hint anot lorhz.. sighz.. haha.. sotz le lar.. hmmm i v scared i will fall deeper.. den get moiself hurt if i come to noe that he don like mi.. lolx.. no la.. even if i hurt.. it's my fault lorh .. hu ask mi fall so deep.. lolx..

sat muz go NHB to test moi blood lor.. den 29jan go operation.. hao kong bu wor.. =( hmmm.. how i wish that if only he'll be by m side lolx.. jkjk.. sotz la.. hmm i not sure whether papa will gimmi the $10 anot lorhz.. i scared will be more than that la.. if mnore than that den i can go and die le lorhz.. aiyah juz drag to the next appt date lorhz.. so ez.. loLx.. hMmm..=X

ha.. guess wad.. i'm so amazed tat i will get to noe a person who is so stupid.. and i noe him for few months liddat.. since sec1.. den dint contact for few yrs.. lolx.. aniwai every time he kena sae by me.,.. ha.. so idiotic siahz.. useless manz.. lolx.. don wanna sae le la.. make mi feel like luffing till i drop.. haha.. simple eng oso don understand can go tiao lou zi sa le la.. lolx.. out of mani ppl he's the only one hu don understand.. wahkaoz.. confirm useless la.. hahaa.. blehz.. *itink that no ppl wld wan himzz de laaA* ahahaa.. bthz.. well.. even if he happen to read this... den too bad la.. make him hate mi.. i'll feel better.. =) hahaha.. weirdo huh? bud well.. who cares? i dont.. it wld be better for mi to hav someone out of my list.. haha.. =p

so boring now.. lolx.. some ppl juz donno the feeling of having someone to like.. or wad eva.. live in suspense? haha.. well.. i don care whether he likes mi anot le lor.. haha.. cuz it's my choice to like or donlike.. =x haha.. rubbish la.. craPZ.. sighz.. donno la.. sianz

hoho.. guess wad? i can get a refund frm the ezlink card.. i tink that wld be $10-$12 liddat if im not wrong.. haha.. blehz.. hah.. den extent till 20jan.. sotz.. haiz.. den after that maybe muz take bus le.. haha.. when i get moi pay den i'll buy a adult de ba? sighz.. so sad.. bud well maybe i'll get to keep my student de den can fake thru ahahaa.. smart huhz.. blehz.. sighz.. wo hao men worr.. nth to do.. is liking a person so difficult?? haha..

hmm.. haha juz now i smsed him a fwd msg lorhz.. hmm.. loLx.. den try my luck whether he'll reply lorhz.. sighz.. den he reply..

[b]ky: that's a cute msg. how's ur tummy..[/b]
me: haha.. much better le .. thanks for ur concern.. bud sometimes abit pain.. i still got alot of cute msg..
[b]ky: u still got eat the bao ji wan? that's realli got to help relieve alot frm past experience. btw if u send me some cute msg like this occasionally, i sure won forget u. haha =O[/b]
me: i don haf the medicine sad case.. oh.. u mean if i nv msg u cute msg den u'll forget mi la? how can u forget me.. ni shang le wo de xin =x
[b]ky:im not too sure if supermarket hav anot buti noe u sure can find it at ani chinese medicine store. either it shld be worth the trip so don sad la.. i'll try not to forget u lor. =< see, sad i oso sad...[/b]>me: haha.. k la k la.. i happi den u happi horz.. y u reply so slow de?
[b]ky : i m half way on my game mah, so reply slower la. u noeguys brain are not suppose to do two things at the same time..[/b]
me : wad game u playin aniwai u got msn?
[b]ky : i playin mm9 aniwai u can forget bout chatting wif mi thru internet cuz i not used to it..[/b]
me : den thru sms lorhz.. haha.. wad is mm9 i oso donno den u're busy now la?
[b]ky : not realli la, but i too hungry to think things straight now.. haha,.. still haven eat dinner yet..mm9 is actualli an rpg game.. my first one lei.. must play a little b4 go ns..[/b]
me : o hmmm y haven eat? aiyoh when u going ns ner? i'll mis u much much de wor haha -.-cuz u're going to prison le..
[b]ky : ok now im havin my dinner so VERY BUSY.. chat next timela.. my hp nearly no batt now..[/b]

wakakak.. sotz la.. =.= hmm.. so sian now la.. no ppl online de wor.. = haha.. i wanna buy mani vcds lorz.. sighz esp hai tu wan lian ren la.. =x haha..

juz now pei ms take picts.. well too bad it's exposed and overlapped.. bth hhaha.. -.- keke.. ltr got light yrs.. lolx.. gonna watch it.. hmm im going insane.. -.-

ha.. sighz.. not sure la.. don dare oso lorhz.. it's soooo confusing.. loLx.. ms and my asked mi to tell him.. dotz.. budden v paiseh la.. haa.. wad if he don lyk mi ner? lol.. den next time paiseh le la.. hmmm aniwai.. even if he tell mi he don like mi oso gd la.. den liddat i wun fall deeper rite? and i can go find another guy rite? loLx.. sotz le la.. sighz.. so fan wor.. bud.. muz find a ripe time to tell rite? lolx.. see how bah if nxt time got go out den sae lorhz. bud i tink he don like mi de lorhz.. cfm de.. haa

yoz.. hmmm now hav time till after new yr.. haha.. den maybe i'll work in the factory bahz? sighzz.. sucks lar.. haha.. todae end earli den went to bugis walk walk lorhz.. den we went to the world of sports.. jhahaha.. look at shoes lorhz.. blehz.. after that i saw a shirt.. v nice.. $26 lorhz.. quite ex bA? sighz.. bud v nice lorhz.. arghz.. hahaa.. den saw a bag also ha.. saw mani nice things.. bud cannt buy siahz..

aniwai that pam sae hor.. hopefully next week might get the pay check lorhz.. sighz.. sad case de lorhz.. hu to borrow money from now?? sighz.. see how bahz.. sobz..

todae stomach pain like hell haha don feel like typin now..

haiz.. i still wanna slp.. donno y la.. so tired.. my eyes cants seem to open.. haa.. hmmm i have change yet.. damnz. ha.. aniwai ytd alot of customers lor.. den v bz.. haiz.. hope that todae not so mani lor.. realli bth la.. still got 3 more days.. haiz.. how to tahan manz.. haha.. realli wanna drop dead.. hahaa.. yawnz.. hmmm tat crazy woman.. haiz,.. mani ppl oso tink tat she's crazy haa.. =x

hai.. juz came home 5mins ago.. so tired lor.. hai.. goonna break soon sia.. if tmr no $$ den cannot work le lo.??? hai........................ hmm now i asking joey kor ha.. don tink he'll lend bahz? =x haiz.. sad case de wor..

aniwai todae at work.. got 4 new pplz.. haa.. 3 bois 1 woman.. the 2 malay.. not really gd wif them la.. den got one chin guy.. quite alrite.. bud at first nv tok la.. den at the end den got lor.. den the gal ar? kaoz.. i don wanna sae now.. make mi no mood..

haiz..

yoz.. juz now i went to bpp buy some papers lorhz.. for tat jL bdae present.. hmm.. makin a card la.. hmm.. when i was walkin to bpp, kn called and asked mi whether i wan her hamsters anot.. few weeks old only la.. den hmm den i sian qu le.. muz buy cage lor. knn de la.. hmm den bought a bottle also.. altogether $36.70 kaoz.. so ex siahz.. sighz.. :( hmm den kn called and told mi tat her sis wan to play wif e hams for a few more daes.. bud i went ahead to see the hamsters.. hmm i walked there lor.. don wanna waste $ sighz.. sad case la.. e sun was scorchin hot.. knn.. haha.. den her mother asked mi to take 2 home lor.. -.- i was like huh? i tot she wanna play.. kn's sis oso nv protest or wad lor. ha.. weird.. hmm den i tink she's quite sad la.. bud nvm lor.. haa.. don realli noe hor to differentiate the male and female.. lolx,, muz go search online.. lolx.. hmm after tat i went home.. den mama called and ask mi whether i wanna go bpp.. ha.. den i ate curry chicken wif bread.. yum. nice. den i drank orange f&n lor. den went home. hah! sighz.. i left ard $15 liddat.. sIAN ji puA.. damnz.. :(

hMmz.. so happi workin for 1 week and i will get bout $378 liddat if work for 12 hrs.. if work more than that den maybe can haf more.. heehee!! blehz.. den i can do both the things i wanna do.. take my lens and rebonding.. lolx.. bud after next week donno do wad da bian oso.. haiz.. =

sighzz.. tmr start work le.. that stupid ticket office de nv reply knn.. =| hahaa.. haiz.. i tink i shld call now.. knn.. humph..

haha this is my complaint siah.. kaoz.. v irritated.. damnz.. muz spend lotsa money to top up ar? no $$ le la.. knn.. :| hahaaa.. sighz..

I would like to know why some of my friends who are waiting for their o level results are able to travel using student fares while i'm also waiting for my o level results. Their expiry date is till 20th of jan'04 and mine is till 30th june'04. They can travel using student fares and i must travel using adult fares. I feel that it's unfair. I went to the ticket offices to enquiry about this issue but they told me that if I'm not studying then it will be adult fares. However, my friends aren't studying too but theirs are deducted by student fare. In addition, i found out that one of my other friend is having the same problem as me. There might be others too. So i hope that you can solve my problem. Thank You!


hmm wad do u tink? donno how will they reply also.. hmm todae is a long dae.. went out wif edna last min lorh.. not really last min lar.. ha aniwai that job i intended to call only accept 18 and above knn lar.. haha.. well nvm.. next week from mon (5/1/04) to fri (9/1/04) i will be working near expo/tenah merah there.. donno do wad da bian lar.. haa.. almost 12hrs lorhz.. maybe will earn bout $250-$300 liddat.. ard there lor.. den after next week maybe do factory lorhz hahaa.. sighz.. den i can do rebonding.. or shld i take my contact lenses first ner? i oso donno siahz.. haiz maybe i'll take my contact lenses first lor.. :| hahahA.. blEHz..

aniwai back to today's event.. met edna near PS there then horz went to this fashion for less than 2mins haha.. and den wen to PS de arcade.. see parapara.. cuz she wanna dance parapara lor.. hmm den got alot of peepz.. haha.. den went down to lucky plaza return aunt wendy thing.. kaoz den she called mi sounding v angry sae wad the currencies all missing sae wad mimi is a big fat liar.. -.- haa.. well.. nvm.. i don gif a damn oso.. -.-zZz.. den went to the arcade no para machine haa.. spent alot la.. oh yea when we were at PS we ate yoshinoya.. quite nice la.. hee.. sighz.. den we went to cine.. the para near entrance and got lotsa ppl loL.. sian la.. den call a taxi to go marina square budden the taxi don wanna hire us.. den too bad l or. haa. -.- den took another taxi.. ha.. go there play para.. den play bowling one game only.. den play pool.. ha.. shldnt hav played bowlin wasting $$ only siahz.. knn siahz.. hmmm pool was alright play ard 4-5games.. quite slow huh.. loLx.. nvm.. next time ask GK.. hmmm.. den went to kfc eat dinner.. den go to orchard again far east see clothes.. wah kaoz.. all the clothes damn nice and ex woo.. loLX.. sighz.. den when wanna go home le.. so mani ppl in 190 lor.. kaoxz.. den i waited for the 4th bus den i can board it wor.. lol.. wahhh leg pain siahz.. bth worhz.. den when i stood at the busstop i tink of him.. cuz that was e spot mi and him waited lolx.. actually got 2 guys waited there lor.. him and joeyz.. yeahz.. bud most memorable one is him lar.. hhaha hmm den reach home lor.. donno y irritated wif my younger bro lolx.. nvm who cares.. hmm.. sighz.. i left bout $8 lorhz.. mimi still owe mi $9, papa $50, edna $4 haa.. sighz.. need to do some calculations le.. sayoz..

yo.. hmm juz woke up not long ago by a fone call.. tat was the JTC company.. loL askin mi whether mondae can work anot.. oh sorry.. i don wanna work there le.. i told her a lame excuse that im sick.. loL.. bud well.. hu cares.. i found another great job.. bud haven call yet.. ltr i'll be going to mac there call lor.. hope there isnt mani ppl. loLx. haiz. had a dream.. a real crazy dream.. =

haha!! todae went for da interview.. hmm $3.50 per hr?? wtf?? lol.. and i calculated le.. if no OT earn only $580.. so little? and u expect mi to survive? no no no!! lol.. so mi,ms and my have decided nt to do tat job le.. hahaa.. blehz.. found a rather attractive job in e newspaper.. $44/$47 a dae.. omg.. so gd.. lol.. 3pm to 11pm thou it's late bud.. hu cares.. loLx.. i wld rather wan the 7pm - 7am de lorhz.. cuz it's $75 per dae.. my god..!!! bth.. lOLxx.. bud still not sure wad's e job like.. so.. don expect too much yeah!? loLZ.. mad le.. hai.. i wanna do mani mani things.. =x lOLxx.. sighz :z